As individuals, we all get to that point where we no longer care about the consequences of our actions and the effects of the things we should have done, but choose not to do.
I believe I’ve gotten to this phase, and it has become my newest fear – the point of awareness about the consequences of my actions and not even care. I used to believe life should be lived up to expectations. However, through time, I realise how damning expectations can be, especially when there is disappointment. To speak on disappointment, it is easier to speak of what someone else has done or will do and the expectations that follow. I feel the worst form of disappointment is self afflicted disappointment or self-disappointment.
It is much easier to withdraw from people, punish them, or cancel and ignore hopes in them than when you’re self-disappointed – there is no running from yourself.
Aside from the disappointment of self, the closest worse is disappointment about life / the future.
Many of us reading this have at some point been disappointed about our future, maybe because of the uncertainty of clarity of what to make with our current state. I’ve come to understand the uncertainty of life and the dangers of hopefulness.
These days, most of what people say or do no longer excites me. I have come to understand that what goes up must surely come down, but what makes the difference is how high our expectations have gone before it comes watering done.
This is not to tell you to lose faith in hope. However, you should understand that some of our greatest victory can only come on the bright side of rejection.
– Collins, Alilonu
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